The New Zealander (pictured top) was speaking ahead of the Sainsbury's Anniversary Games at the Olympic Stadium starting tomorrow, marking a year since the Opening Ceremony of London 2012.

Adams finished behind Ostapchuk in last year's women's Olympic shot put final and watched as the 32-year-old cried tears of joy during the medal ceremony only for the title to be stripped off her following two positive drugs tests, the first on the day before the competition and the second on the day of the event.

Ostapchuk was given a one-year ban from the sport following an alleedged admission from after her coach Alexander Yefimov that he intentionally spiked her coffee with the banned substance metenolone.

"I was pissed off," said Adams, who subsequently received her Olympic gold medal from the New Zealand Governor-General, Sir Jerry Mateparae, at a special ceremony in Auckland in September.


It was her second consecutive Olympic gold medal having also won in Beijing four years earlier.

"I was really really angry at her and I was quite sad and depressed," said Adams.

"A lot of emotions went through me but I think one thing is that I will never forgive her and never will.

"She has tainted the sport, she has tainted our event and it's something she shouldn't have done.

"The worst thing about it for me was that she took the moment away and that's what probably hurts the most is that at the time where I was crying tears of disappointment for my country, for myself and for my coach, this thing was crying her crocodile tears embracing a moment that should not have been hers.

"That's what hurts the most is that she took that away from me, and I have no sympathy for her whatsoever.

"She can stay in Belarus forever."Ostapchuk, who finished with a bronze medal at Beijing 2008 behind Adams, also had her 2005 World Championship title revoked in March of this year along with a number of other athletes including 2005 world champions Ivan Tsikhan of Belarus and Olga Kuzenkova of Russia - in the men's and women's hammer - following retesting of samples by the International Association of Athletics Federations.

Adams, 28, claimed competing in the Olympic Stadium in London this weekend will go some way to making up for the disappointment of not having the chance to experience the feeling of standing on top of the podium in front of 80,000 fans at last year's Games.


"I'm pretty happy to back and obviously I have mixed feelings but I am pretty happy to be back here in London again, and get to enjoy the atmosphere on a different level," said the three-time world champion.

"I guess it's one way of closing the book on what happened to me here and the competition that happened last year wasn't something to remember but I'm looking forward to competing on Saturday.

"It would be good for me to win and obviously the plan is to win on Saturday (July 27) and feel the glory.

"It's definitely not the same thing but I'm just happy to come back here and come to London and compete in the Olympic stadium.

"For us athletes as throwers, our event was tainted so it's good to come back and compete and to show the crowd that we are doing it clean and competing to the best of our ability and give them a good show."

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